Confused...

i
am
totally
CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what am i suppose to do?
what am i suppose to do??
what am i suppose to do???

my heart is not where it belongs!
i cant see my future!
i cant see anything!
i'm drooownning...

somebody...





anybody...








help

Yeah!! Next Post!!

i noticed that i had actually miss Muar so much..
i thought that i will be just fine here but i keep thinking about certain people and their lookalike in Melaka.

there is a girl that sounded like Shana..
not the voice but the way she talk... exactly like Shana..
then, there is this girl that is like Adelaide Kwong..
the voice and the size is just the same..
even the laughter is the same..
that gave me a fright...
although they sound like their respective partners, i still miss the originals...


when a guy tells you, i like you..
what does a girl suppose to feel and say?
happy?
sad?
emotional?
thank you?
you're welcome?
i like you too?

well, sad is out of the case..
but a certain girl dun feel a thing..
she said that she didn feel anything at all..
no stomach churning and the chills around or even goosebumps..
NOTHING!!!!
no emotions or whatsoever..
i shall conclude that the power of love is much more powerful than the power of like..
try telling a person...
damn hard... but,
much easier but it's the first step to everything..

haha.. i'm crapping again ok then...
that's all for today..
stay tuned for more tomorrow..

i know you want me, yeah

I Love You...

actually i thought of putting this as my status in facebook but decided to put it here because it's a but too long...

Looking at the palm of my hands, the tiny lines coming through the fingers and started to think.. Suddenly, it feels wet and warm... so many people had came into my life.. i could not mention all because it's too many.. some left and never came back.. some stayed by my side always.. some encourages me and brought me up when i was down.. these hands had experience the bad and good of life.. thanks for being by my side always when i need you.. now, we are going to separate places but like everyone hands, i will be by your side when you need me..

oh, man.. i think i'm going to cry now.. haha..

truthfully, i dun really have anything to write...
i dun have anything interesting to write..

made some business today..
had a lot of fun helping my friends to buy tickets..
it's for the drama fest this coming tuesday.. never miss this!!!

got very addicted to facebook..
every morning (or may i say afternoon on certain days) i will check my facebook first before going to class..
there is always something new..
news feed bout wat is happening at muar and in campus...
haha...

i think i will leave till here..
i will see you all next time then..
goodbye.. for now..

i know you want me, yeah!!!

Sleepy..

back from cheer and my friend here, Victor thought that i lied to him in joining cheer...
swtzzz.....

so, how's life?
nothing interesting happen to me

love life?
nothing nice happen

study?
nothing nice to talk about

sleep?
the best thing that i ever did

friends?
ok la.. everyone is all right and fine

haha.. sorry i really have nothing to do.. bored and all..
i'm emo-ing la...
please wait for my next post..
it will be more interesting than this one..
goodbye for now..

i know you want me, yeah!!!

100 plus.. I MISS You!!!

been drinking a lot of

100 PLUS

lately.. haha...
i think i'm really addicted to it..
but i no money already..
drink too much also not good...
haizz...
why does the factory have to produce such good drinks, huh???

i'm sitting at the living room now with the laptop on my lap, thinking about the presentation this morning..
it was this morning...
i trembled so much like i had never trembled before...
did not pay attention when others were presenting so i got called up to answer some questions..
sorry ah, Jun An..
hehe...
the presentation was ok..
nothing actually when wrong so that will be the good news...
but the bad news is the marks..
i don't know if i will get good marks for that..
it takes 15% of my whole marks...
teacher!! give me more!!! (like she can hear that)


anyway,
CLASH OF THE TITANS IS OUT NOW!!!
i hope i can go watch it..
it looks very interesting..

well, i have nothing more to say but goodbye...



p/s: why am i busy writing this blog when no one bothers to read it??? hmm....
pp/s: my fingernail went into my flesh.. pain ah.. oww.. cant use my thumb now.. damn painful..

I'm All Alone Now.

looking back at times when i was only an innocent, young girl at the age of fifteen to seventeen, i kinda miss the times when i can talk to my muarian friends so damn easily..
flash backs of times when i can freely talk to them and they are so happily talking to me, when we laugh out loud and got punished together are unforgettable..
but now it has turn into merely a

MEMORY

the time where we sit on the floor eating karipap and kerepok lekor has long gone..
now, i have to move on..
although the fear of loneliness are still in my brains(i got 2 brains,the left and the right), i hope none of them will bother me..

looks like i have nothing more to say..
i miss the old times..
i hope we can talk like last time but not like strangers greeting each other by the roadside on an early morning day..
thank you..




p/s:miss you all too much.. here is different from home.. although i had lots of friends but still the experiences we had together cannot be compared with..
pp/s:good night..

I Really Don't Know What To Say.

it's so late already but i don't think i can sleep now..
my eyes are so heavy but i don't know why i don't want to push myself upstairs to sleep..
maybe i'm just plain lazy..
today, my parents brought me and my sister back to melaka..
just a day at home, one night to sleep air-cond..
haizz.. i miss my old room..
air-cond...
my bed..
my pillow..
my fluffy blanket..
i want air-cond..
why does it rain in the morning but not at night?
why don't it rain the whole day?
cooler and fresher everyday..

tomorrow will be a sunday..
ok luckily, it's a sunday..
i hate mondays and tuesdays and wednesdays and thursdays...........
very lazy la!!!!

i really have nothing to write...
maybe i will have a little teeny, weeny bit of idea tomorrow or should i say today..
haha.. lame..
good night, people.. good night, Melon!!! (the house cat-i adore her but she loves scratching me)
good night, world..
hopefully that when my housemate return from her hometown, the house will be much more cheerful and brighter..
haha...

nitez nitez!!... XD

The Usual...

haha... im backy back!!!
well, it kinda hit me full in the face when i notice i dun really have a lot of readers..
haizz... a big failure but i will be loyally in front if my laptop typing my blog no matter how many readers there are reading my blog...
how unpopular i can be.. haha..

it's pouring rain outside...
im sitting here snuggly on the sofa looking at the screen and the house cat yawning..
a very nice weather to sleep but too bad i dun have the feel to sleep..
last month was a dry season and u can guess how hot is it...
cant even sleep properly..
so me and my housemates all 4 of us bunk in a room and on the air-cond..
very nice but luckily its rainy season so we dun have to on the air-cond... haha...

this a few pics.. sry i couldnt say much..
my laptop that i got for my results..

took this while writing my blog..

took this in Zen Cafe.. haha... that place is nice.. (Dataran Pahlawan)
the house cat... sleeping so nicely.. she is a poser.. actually, she knows we are taking picture of her.. haizz..

don't u just love to hug her? hug the demon cat.. haha... she is a little demonic..
look! i paint my nails!!! its violet and not pink.. pink and violet is not the same!!


this is some of my uni life pictures.. enjoy!!
this is law night le prestige.. very nice event..
everyone look so pretty and gorgeous dat day... (from left: Alvina, my sister, Lyn'nette, me, and Christine)
hehe.. after the event we go posing at the hotel.. nothing to do..
the subject that i learn.. the lecturer is the best i ever seen.. funny but can be sarcastic at the same time.. haha.. he is very punctual in time and all... haha..

and this is on 'hat' day which is organized by me.. only people who has nothing to do like me will do this things.. haha.. my coursemates!! (from left: Nurain-Australia, Edwin-KL, me, 'Mario'-not his real name, Iran, and Aliaa-KL.. haha..

i had lots of fun.. thank you all..

Muaxx.. XD