KFC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just eaten kfc only...
so happy... if my mum is here, that will be a 0.1% of chance of eating that..
hahahaha....
i thought that tmr i won't be having a class but tomorrow got class ah...
luckily it's something to do with computer or else i will faint in the 2 hours class..

What is it like feeling so lonely?

What is it like to be so damn freaking lonely?
Honestly, you don't want to know..
People may say that i am well, happily blessed with lots and lots of friends but why do i still have the shitty feeling that i was left abandoned all alone in a small cage, waiting for someone, or anyone to use a key and open the door for me.
The feeling started a long time ago.

I was an ordinary kid like you, like every normal small size human beings could be.
I had a lot of friends.
But something, i do not know what, plunge me into this horrible cage.
I started to space out and into the shadows of everyone's life.
I may laugh and talk like everyone else. I have lots and lots of friends but why do i have this feeling?
Friends make you feel you are wanted and you actually existed on this face of this earth but why don't have this feeling?
Maybe i was just acting impossible, hard-to-get, or just being ridiculous, or maybe i wanted attention.
Yeah. Maybe the fourth one is the one that i should stick to it.
After a while, friends like S and Y had actually made me realise the truth.

I'M ACTING LIKE A STUPID!!!

Ok, i admit i am.
I hope this feeling is going ro receed but it doesn't.. Not yet..
And now i'm in MMU.
Living with my new friends, A1,A2, A3, L, C, K, and H.
Everything is going fine.
School's fine.
Lecturers' are fine.
Students' are fine.
Why am i still lonely?

Then, it struck me.
My mum was talking to my sister one day.
I heard it, of course (they intend to let me listen to what they say).
I was not feeling lonely.
I was afraid.
Afraid that i will lose all my friends if i ever do anything wrong to them.
I thought that one slightest mistake will make my friendship with them, broken forever.
I will always make up with lots of sorries, frightful that anuthing can happen and this has cause me to lose myself too.
I was being too good til people take avantage of me. ><
So, now i am going to try to be who i wanted to be!!! And never let anyone look down on me again!!!

Hopefully i can do it. T.T

p/s: To those who may concern. If i did anyhing wrong, gomenasai, sorry yah..
pp/s: Oh, shit. I'm doing it again. ><

Names are ommited to protect privacy to those who are concern.
Thank You!

School Starts A Week Ago..

i can imagine those faces looking so desperate and unhappy.. heads stuff into books for those kiasu people and those talking ringing around my head, teachers getting ready with hundreds of books in their hands, teacher scolding students who are noisy.. school is in town now.. good luck guys.. i have already past mine.. now, it's your turn..

i still can remember the feeling when i first step into secondary school.. i don't know what to do, what to say, where to sit, where to stand, just plain feeling of stupidness... that was damn funny..

but, school wasn't that bad.. not perfect but still not bad..


i miss all of those so much... maybe college is going to be the same??


made lots and lots of good friends there...


not forgetting the wonderful memories we share..
i missss you guysss already....... hope we can meet again sooner or later..

p/s: sry bout the drama pic.. kinda small.. haha...
luv you!!

Sorry For The Long Lost Blogging..

" No one is alone in the world once you are born in it."

The quote was from an anime i was currently catching up, One Piece.. Damn nice show!!! I think i'm getting one piece fever now.. actually, some anime did teach a certain interesting, yet motivating things like the above.. i did cried a few times.. pathetic me.. haha..

so, now everyone is leaving muar.. poor muar.. all go study locally or abroad.. Going to miss you all!!!

weix gone to national service.. huhuhu.. T.T

bought a few books last month.. i mean last year.. for the first time i bought 3 books and a few movies (animes actually). i never buy that much before.. difficult to resist the temptations of reading stories about vampires.. vampire academy and frostbite.. city of bones, book one.. quite interesting.. especially vampire academy.. got lots of bad words and to those who are under 15 dun read kind of things.. haha.. dun mind that.. interesting book..

hmm. ok that's all i want tp type.. weix asks me to type lots lots but im afraid i cant do that.. sry weix.. hope you can be here now.. i miiiissssssssss youuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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This Sucks...

i find my blog a failure.. not even a hand of people actually take a peek in this.. well, i canot blame them.. maybe they just lazy to type lo.. ok fine.. nothing else to write..

will be going to Malacca for my foundation of accountancy next year.. multimedia university to be exact.. not going to Sunway already.. too bad la.. not going to see anyone in KL.. goodbye all.. going next year in the end January..

just change the blog skin..

haha...

ok nothing to write..

bye....

Nothing i could say..

Sometimes i keep asking myself the same old fucking thing..

WHAT DOES THE LOVE ACTUALLY BLOODY MEAN?

ok that is stupid.. really stupid.. i duno if love do hurt and heal at the same time... hmmm... gonna do a research on dat.. someday..
well, i manage to clear all the old stuffs i had during my suffering years of a 17 year old.. i found my book.. my blue one actually.. my i-actually-completed-the-story book.. i read it through once.. and oh my goodness.. i can't believe i actually wrote (why am i not surprise when i wrote that 6 words).. the story doesn't suck.. just feels a bit weird.. probably from the long-time-no-write-a-story experience.. ok i have really nothing to say.. weix teach me to crap.. and i crapped but still not enough to atually feel one just nice length of post..

now only i know that kristen stewart was in the movie Zathura, a space adventure.. it was a nice show.. the astronaut was cute, if you know what i mean.. no wonder the girl look so familiar.. the hair, the face... but still THE guy playting Jacob Black in New Moon is my top.. Taylor Lautner.. Beautiful. just love him.. i love Taylor, not Jacob.. Sry, no offence to Jacob fans out there which is a total 0% since i found out no one read this.. sucks, i think my brain is jammed again.. can't think bout anything to write..

ANYONE CAN HELP ME???? IDEAS PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok dat's all i think.. bye..

p/s: i really suck in writing.. hope you don't mind the mistakes..

Life Sucks Don't You Know That..

ok i admit.. my life sucks a lot..

first of all.. HAPPY MERDEKA TO ALL FORM 5'S WHO DID NOT TAKE CHINESE SUBJECT!!!!!!
i have been waiting for this day for so long.. four weeks of boredom and suffering..
at last, away from hell..
no more tuition, no more books, only me and my i-already-start-to-feel-a-little-bored life.
tuition ends, no more friends to kacau.. ahhhhhh......... im going to miss convent.. really, truly, deeply do.. muah muah.. the people, teachers and most of all the cosy school.. that is said to be haunted.. that makes all the thrill!!! haha..

going to find something nice to do coz i don't think i have anyhting to do except to keep typing and typing and typing becoz imagine that i have nothing to do!

please recommend me something except breathing, reading books, blogging and shopping.. i am doing this right now..

currently still learning how to work this blog up.. very confusing.. wat am i doing???

ok gtg now.. wan to play some silly games, killing monsters.. the usual.. byebye!!


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Having Exams But Still Can Play..

Hahahaha... Exams going to end in another 3 days but really can't wait ahhh............. last paper chemistry.. how am i going to survive with chemist?????

yesterday went to.... KL!!!!!! oh yeah.. it's the YEAR END SALE!!! don't tell me shopping is boring.. fetch my sister from malacca at 7.45 in the morning ( wat the ****), then, went to Midvalley to buy my sis's suit.. court suit.. dam nice oo.. discount discount discount everywhere... bought a shirt in G2000.. hehe.. nice~.. will not be wearing it till next year.. too bad.. had breakfast at Steven's teacorner (had superb non sweet teh tarik and nasi lemak with nasi rendang.. very nice but cost RM10.88 for dat.. hmmph hmmph..) fetch my bro from the airport afterwards.. came back from Taiwan trip.. Lucky him.. couldn't stop talking bout it till today (sickeningly jealous bout his trip).. then, went shopping at the same place again.. eat lunch at 4.00 in the evening (funny time) at a restaurant Canton-i.. (hmmph hmmph scary prices for a Muarian) eat the best egg tart and dessert and tried prawns that are soooo springy.. yes! springy! nice~.... have to sacrifice myself for good food.. huhuhhu T.T

Later walk around trying to find a nice snow globe to buy for my christmas.. uhhh... none can be found.. no nice de!!!!! couldn't buy a jigsaw puzzle but will try to buy next time.. then, went home but on the way, decided to stop at Dunkin' Donut's.. quite late so couldn't find any donuts.. went to KFC.. OMG!!! hahaha.. Fried Chicken yay!!!!! Love it.. That's dinner for us at 9.oo (timing all off, gone haywire).. went home, reach home, sing birthday song for my dad (Happy Birthday, Daddy!!! Hope he read this...) and go to sleep...

that's all that actually happen dat time.. going off now.. dam tired.. ow waiting for my online game to load.. (exam haven over start playing already) hope the girl who uses this computer can be very patient with my pc.. poor pc.. full of viruses but still love u after so many hardships together.. huhuhu T.T..