Buck up and Live your life!

I have the worst days in my life: working life. It's the life where you better swim or you sink. The life of an auditor. It's not as glamorous as the name would sound. The Auditor. That could be a show's name. But the life is not as it seems. Work till late night, wake up before the sun rises. Plus working in a congested city of Kuala Lumpur.
An auditor survives with people skills, constant stress and the need to be persistent and hardworking. People skills are essential because we survive with communicating to clients and other potential clients. And this is where to trouble begins. I have zero to nothing social skills. I don't talk to people unless they talk to me first. I am metaphorically a robot. You talked to me, i reply. You asked me to do work, i do. So, that is how hard it is for my every working day. I will sit quietly in my desk until someone approaches me.
I don't talk to strangers. Except for the aunties selling food.
This is a vicious world. One mistake and you are out. Not fired, but no future. People will know you, give you almost nothing to do because they don't trust you with it. Word will spread like wildfire. Gaining back the trust is like picking up chicken feathers spread on the road overnight. You may get some of it back but not all of it.
It truly has been hard but i have my wonderful friends to thank. He reminded me that I have not fallen to the lowest but am climbing up. I have a wonderful boyfriend that doesn't mind sacrificing his time for me, I have been living my life, joining walk events, I have wonderful friends that keeps in touch, I play DnD and MMORPG, I am doing a professional degree, top 10 hardest in the world, interning in a medium firm that I don't even know if I can get into. I am already half way towards a badass chick. Yeah, just these few words, they had made my shoulders much lighter. Thank you, Ali.

Just 4 and 3/4 months to go.

Gotye- Hearts A Mess 

Pick apart

The pieces of your heart

And let me peer inside

Let me in

Where only your thoughts have been

Let me occupy your mind

As you do mine

Your heart's a mess

You won't admit to it

It makes no sense

But I'm desperate to connect

You can't live like this

You have lost

(Too much love)

To fear, doubt and distrust

(It's not enough)

You just threw away the key

To your heart

You don't get burned

('Cause nothing gets through)

It makes it easier

(Easier on you)

But that much more difficult for me

To make you see

Love ain't fair

So there you are

My love

You heart's a mess

You won't admit to it

It makes no sense 

But I'm desperate to connect

And you, you can't live like this

You heart's a mess

You won't admit to it

It makes no sense 

But I'm desperate to connect

And you, you can't live like this

Love ain't safe 

You won't get hurt of you stay chaste

So you can wait

But I don't wanna waste my love

The meaning for this video is quite easy to understand. Gotye is trying to connect to a person and mend his/her heart. The first one is a 'victim' carried away by canniblas. It signifies imprisonment or being controlled. The second one is a broken stork. It signifies abortion and impotence. The third one is a woodcutter in a jungle full of eyes. It signifies that the woodcutter is lost in the jungle full of eyes which are judgmental people. The eyes that are always looking at you, making you feel down. The fourth one is a crane knocking houses down. It signifies anger and depression. The fifth one is a 'victim' on an ice, trying to row to shore. It signifies hopelessness, trying to reach out to someone for help. The sixth one is a ghost appearing out of grave. It signifies death of a loved one. As they continue, they climbed onto each other and flew into space. This means relieving the person from all the six sufferings. The spider closed the heart with a drape signifying a new start, a new beginning. So Gotye, leads the six sufferings out of the person's heart, creating a new beginning for him/her. 

New Resolutions!!! And New Motivations to SAVE SAVE SAVE!!!

Yosh!!! New motivations and aims to buy more things that i like..
This post is going to remind me of everything that i wrote and must not forget about it!!!

New Resolutions to make next year!!!
1. NO MORE SAYING THAT I'M FOREVER ALONE BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE HAVE IT WORST THAN ME!! I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE!! MUST MUST MUST KEEP THAT I HAVE FRIENDS IN MIND!!! (i don't mean anything but i tend to forget important things.)
2. NO MORE EATING TOO MUCH!! ALSO IF WANT, MUST EXERCISE!! GO SWIMMING EVERY WEEK 3 TIMES!!! (i must not avoid good food)
3. EAT MORE VEGE AND FRUITS!!
4. MUST STUDY HARD AND EARN MORE MONEY TO BUY MY THINGS THAT I WANT!!
5. EARN MONEY!! MUST OPEN MY JIGSAW PUZZLE SHOP IN KL ONE DAY!! (this is for real..)
6. STOP DREAMING ABOUT THINGS THAT I WANT BUT WORK HARD FOR IT!!

ok now, the list of items that i want that will motivate me into saving money to buy..
1. New house's furniture from Ikea.. Budget: 100,000
2. Jigsaw puzzle business.. Budget: 55,000
3. Charles and Keith Shoes.. Budget: 300
4. Personal Computer.. Budget: 3,000
5. Beats earphone by Dr. Dre.. Budget: 200
6. One Piece Discs (all).. Budget: 500
7. 1/60 Gundam Astray Red Frame (PG).. Price: 630
8. Shi Musha Gundam (MG).. Price: 185
9. Destiny Gundam (SD).. Price: 31
10. 1/100 Gundam Epyon EW(MG).. Price: 168

ohohohoh... having motivation is better than having none.. hopefully can have all of them before im 40...
XDDDD

ok now, i shall go back to sleep..
got paper tomorrow..
actually today..
but the next day won't start until I wake up...
OYASUMINASAI, MINA-SAN!!!!

Everyone will make the most important decision at least once in his/her lifetime... Soon, it will be my turn..