Thursday, August 29, 2013

Share The Love.

It is the happiest thing in the world to be able to share the love with someone important. It is important to stress that a relationship is all about appreciation and sharing the love you have for yourself with that special someone. It's not about receiving love and wanting to fill the empty hole in your heart. 
Sometimes, when I miss you, I would look at your pictures. Now, I sound like a stalker. Hahaha.
I take things quite intensely so any words that he share, I tend to interpret it as a love message. It may be not one but i prefer to keep it that way.
I must keep my expectation low so I won't get disappointed.
I must always forgive. By forgiving, only one can move on. It's not only for a relationship, its also for friendship, family and even pets.
I really hope this will last longer, if possible forever. Must try to make it work all the way. 

Monday, August 26, 2013

Fucked up

I just fucked up my whole life. Once a bright student, now I find myself a disappointment.
Due to my increasing level of laziness, I did the following:

  • Skipped too many classes
  • No assignment group mates which causes me to miss out 20 marks.
  • Fall back on my studies.
This semester has been hard for me. I am a very lazy person in nature. And karma hits me back double. I have been counted lucky a few times. I guess this is where my luck is gone. I shouldn't have relied on luck too much.
Sometimes, I do think of giving up and just suicide. But this won't change anything. It will still make my family and friends sad. I have to buckle up and try to score this semester.
If I continue skipping classes, this on my own written words, would ask someone to take my money, buy guns and bullets and shoot me in the head.
I really am very tired of all this.
I don't have much friends.
I am grateful for those that helped me.
I am so happy to have some friends who still helps me.

In the middle of the night, all I want is just a hug.