Friday, April 19, 2013


I somehow loses my friends very easily. One, they moved away. Two, lost contact with them. Three, they forgets about me. Four, they avoid me because of my attitude.
I get really really sad when i lose a friend. It's true that people will leave you anytime, anywhere, but it's still so sad when one leaves. It's like a part of you just dies off. And scrapping that part off is not easy.
But what can I do. It's not like i can force them to stay. It's not like they will listen to me. Everyone has to move on one day. It's so sad.

I have a friend who doesn't even think I am a friend. i got ignored. It is the saddest feeling when it happens. Can't people just tell me in my face when they don't want me around? It's better to just tell me.

Karma's a bitch.

Friday, April 12, 2013

Rory Williams

I once had my own Rory, till I turn stupid and let him go. 


It is such a weird thing. It comes at the weirdest moments, took you by surprise, swept you off your feet, and you landed on your back with either an arm stretched or the cold hard floor waiting for you. It is true that people can leave without love. In this context, it means, love between 2 different, non-related individuals. Love between siblings and family members, pets and other non-existence things are different.

It hurts a lot when all you hear from the one is bla bla bla, this girl, bla bla bla, that girl, bla bla bla, i like her, bla bla bla. I feel like punching you in the guts but that will be impossible. I saw a post in Facebook by one of the animes. It hit really hard on me.

So, now you're going to hate me?

I wish I could. 

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Tears won't flow.

I have been watching numerous sad movies, series, whatever I can find. I have been listening to so many sad musics. I have watched the saddest episode for Doctor Who. I still can't seem to get these heavy tears of anguish, pain and sadness flow. Everything is balled up into one huge dark ball, ready to be released. But why wouldn't it release or go away when I want it to be. It is so heavy, keeping it to myself like this. The feeling inside is so painful I really hope i just ask it to go away. Please just go away.

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Gotye- Hearts A Mess 

Pick apart
The pieces of your heart
And let me peer inside
Let me in
Where only your thoughts have been
Let me occupy your mind
As you do mine

Your heart's a mess
You won't admit to it
It makes no sense
But I'm desperate to connect
You can't live like this

You have lost
(Too much love)
To fear, doubt and distrust
(It's not enough)
You just threw away the key
To your heart

You don't get burned
('Cause nothing gets through)
It makes it easier
(Easier on you)
But that much more difficult for me
To make you see

Love ain't fair
So there you are
My love

You heart's a mess
You won't admit to it
It makes no sense 
But I'm desperate to connect
And you, you can't live like this

You heart's a mess
You won't admit to it
It makes no sense 
But I'm desperate to connect
And you, you can't live like this

Love ain't safe 
You won't get hurt of you stay chaste
So you can wait
But I don't wanna waste my love

The meaning for this video is quite easy to understand. Gotye is trying to connect to a person and mend his/her heart. The first one is a 'victim' carried away by canniblas. It signifies imprisonment or being controlled. The second one is a broken stork. It signifies abortion and impotence. The third one is a woodcutter in a jungle full of eyes. It signifies that the woodcutter is lost in the jungle full of eyes which are judgmental people. The eyes that are always looking at you, making you feel down. The fourth one is a crane knocking houses down. It signifies anger and depression. The fifth one is a 'victim' on an ice, trying to row to shore. It signifies hopelessness, trying to reach out to someone for help. The sixth one is a ghost appearing out of grave. It signifies death of a loved one. As they continue, they climbed onto each other and flew into space. This means relieving the person from all the six sufferings. The spider closed the heart with a drape signifying a new start, a new beginning. So Gotye, leads the six sufferings out of the person's heart, creating a new beginning for him/her.