Dual Personality

I don't want to write this..

but i don't want to write this..

I am sometimes girlish..

but i'm still guyish...

I am a nerd.. I love books..

but i still go out socializing..

I am love both guyish and girlish animes..

I feel like banging my head on the wall..

but that would probably hurt..

I love people's attention..

but i love being a loner...

i am always smiling..

but emoing inside..

im going crazy..

but people just say im weird...

i hate myself..

and love myself at the same time...